Tumblr

It has been so long since I posted that I figure everyone has moved on and that's cool, I just wanted to tell my loyal followers that I now have a tumblr account, which I hope to update more frequently. And I'd like this just to be not made public on facebook :)

http://www.tumblr.com/tumblelog/danav1

I Love Lucy

Last week was Lucy's birthday! She turned 1, on October 15th, and I treated her to a spa treatment for the occasion :) I can't describe how much happiness she has brought me this year! All I can say is that she finds a way to love me even though it isn't easy! If I get close to a piece of furniture these days, that's her cue to jump on for a ride, and that melts my heart every time :)

2 years

Well, it is hard for me to believe that it has been 2 years (Friday) since my brother Tim passed. I still at times am stopped suddenly by the thought that he is gone, and I wonder if that will ever change. My intent, though, is not to wallow in sadness, but instead to simply acknowledge the day, because I would never want him to think he is forgotten.

Despite his failing health in later years, I will always try to remember him as he is in this picture. Mom said I was scared of the photographer, and was crying, so Tim put his arm around me to comfort me. Because he continued after that to be the one person to whom I could tell my silliest fears, and always receive assurance that everything was ok, I choose to think, though at times it is a challenge, that somehow he has his reassuring arm around me even now.

Remember when

I saw the following on my friend Jennie's blog and thought it seemed fun and interesting, so I participated. Now it’s my turn to see what memories you have of me.

It’s game time! Here’s how to play…

1. As a comment on my blog, leave a memory that you have of me. It doesn’t matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see who leaves a memory about you.

5 good things

Because a good friend, and one of the people I admire most posted a list of 5 good things, and because it hit me that no matter how bad you feel about things, there are at least 5 good things, I've decided to break my trend of not posting:

1. My family - My parents, siblings, nephews and niece.

2. My friends - The people who know that the times you aren't real fun to be around won't last forever, and let you know it too. You know who you are.

3. Big shiny new Macs.

4. Sunshine.

5. Modern technology.

Reconsidering

OK, will you guys think badly of me if I decide NOT to do Stride & Ride this year? The thing is, every time I think about it, I have this horrible sense of dread. Those of you who know me well know that while I'm quick with a smile, I'm not real keen on sharing my emotions with most people, so when I think of going to Stride & Ride, I think of the inevitable condolences and inquiries that I will face, and I'm not sure I'm at a place where I can smile my way through that. And I know that you guys would be there to support me, but I think I need a year of healing... does that make sense? When it occurred to me that I don't HAVE to do it this year, I felt this huge sense of relief, so I think I'm not going to do it. I hope that doesn't make me weak, and maybe I'll feel differently after the holidays, but for now that's where I am.

absence makes the heart go fonder... ?

Hi gang. I know it has been forever since I posted. I just haven't been able to make myself do it, but I have a bit of business to take care of and decided the best way to get started again is just do it.

I have been debating whether or not to do Stride & Ride this year... I've been worried that it will be really hard after just losing Tim, but there is no better reason to do it than his loss, so I will be there, and I would appreciate the attendance of any of you who are interested.

It is February 9th this year, and it will be at the UALR track & field building, which will allow for a later start time than normal - right now they are saying 10 am. More details will follow.

Please let me know if you are interested.