Reconsidering

OK, will you guys think badly of me if I decide NOT to do Stride & Ride this year? The thing is, every time I think about it, I have this horrible sense of dread. Those of you who know me well know that while I'm quick with a smile, I'm not real keen on sharing my emotions with most people, so when I think of going to Stride & Ride, I think of the inevitable condolences and inquiries that I will face, and I'm not sure I'm at a place where I can smile my way through that. And I know that you guys would be there to support me, but I think I need a year of healing... does that make sense? When it occurred to me that I don't HAVE to do it this year, I felt this huge sense of relief, so I think I'm not going to do it. I hope that doesn't make me weak, and maybe I'll feel differently after the holidays, but for now that's where I am.